Long Week

It has been a very long tiring week! I am so glad it is behind me. I noticed something new this week about me. My shoulders are sore and in a knot. Even at the bottom of my neck where it meets my back is numb from the tension I suppose. So a friend of mine at work said hey I will give you a massage. Well let me just say this it hurt so bad!! She kept telling me to relax and enjoy it but I just didn't have the heart to tell her she was hurting me! I thought it was so kind of her to even offer to help me! Just one more reminder, that I didn't need by the way, as my life going forward will be like with Fibromyalgia. I also have found this week by the time I get home I am so sleepy it takes everything I have to stay awake. I just want to be "normal" again!!

As most of you know I am a huge Titanic fan, and they just opened up a new permanent exhibit in Pigeon Forge Tn so David & I are getting away for some alone time. Due to all my travels with work I have earned enough points to stay in a hotel free and we have a gift card to a restaurant so dinner will be free. So the only cost to us is the exhibit and the gas. The only problem is that when I planned this I didn't think about Mothers day and of course I booked on that weekend. I feel bad about this but I have to keep reminding myself I will be home with the kiddo's on Sunday afternoon. I will post pics when I get back next week.

I hope everyone has a great weekend and Happy Mothers Day to everyone!!

Wet Sunday

Well it has been very raining here lately and it is doing nothing for the pain. Since I last blogged I tried steroid injections, not a good ideal. Been told there is nothing anyone can do for me because to be honest every test that I have had proves out to be fine. So they see no reason for me to have this pain. I am becoming depressed more everyday because the pain is just to much to handle. I spend my weekends locked up in my house doing nothing but sleeping and using heating pads because I am so much pain I can't seem to do anything else. I look at women my age going to parks with there kids, participate in so many family activities that I just can't do and it just get's me more down. I have come to realize there is no help for me in the medical world and have now went into to just pain management. Not the hard drug kind but pain patches and Tramadol in low doses, which some day doesn't even begin to help with the pain. But I go on because I believe that sitting down and saying enough is not an option. My husband, David, has never done that with his 13 hip replacements and is a great motivation for me to keep going. He is also there when I hit my lows to pick me up and say keep going!

On to other news in the family my daughter Ashley had her Junior prom a few weeks ago and was beyond beautiful. She also this week applied for her first college and alothough all this also makes me sad I am a very proud mom! She has turned out to be a very talented young lady and I truly believe that if she doesn't let life get in the way she will be able to accomplish all of her dreams! Here photo from prom is above.

Progress I hope!

I am now doing therapy with PT. Once a week in there office and the other 2 days in the pool with them at the local Y. My friend Gin & I also started doing yoga at her house, okay so I can't do it as long as I would like but I lasted 5 min on that one!! I have also started using more vitamins. I am not sure what if any of this will do for me but I am at least hoping for more days without pain but I will settle for at least being able to go out with my family without alot of pain. I so need that more then anything! I am also very tired these days and wish I could just spend a couple of days in bed but that is not possible with my life right now. So I just settle for the weekends where I can sleep past 5 am! I am off again this week for another fun filled week of travel for work. Okay so it is not fun filled it is kinda boring but I have to put a positive spin on it!!

Long weekend

Well we had a very busy weekend, our son, DJ, turned 10 today so over the weekend we had a small birthday party for him with his friends and then our neighbor daughter turned 2 so we went to her party on Sunday. DJ had a blast at that one as well. So needless to say I am very tried and I don't feel like I have slept in days but it was so worth it to see there faces so happy. I love both of these kids and it was a joy to be with them both on there special days.

DJ, in the middle, Spencer, Kyle & Christopher

Kerry the birthday girl

Long long week

Okay so I am back from another work week of travel. To say I am exhausted is to say the least. As I sit here I am so tired I can barley type and my leg is killing me. My favorite saying for this is just please cut it off it would feel so much better if someone would. Besides driving today I also went to aqua therapy today and although I know this will/is suppose to help me with the pain doing that and the long drive makes it really hard on me. I just have to remember to keep going one day at at time. If only I could get some rest but this weekend will be busy as well, DJ will be 10 on Monday so we are having a small birthday party for him then our neighbor, Kerry, will be 2 on Sunday so we will be going to a birthday party for her as well. Then it is back to another work week here before I go out for another travel week on March 8th. Does it ever stop??

I am back!!

Okay so it has been awhile since I have posted and alot has changed! It has been a year of alot of changes for us. First we have lost both of our kitty's and we are very sad by this but we have now filled our house with 2 dogs. Sadie has been with us for a long time but we added a new puppy to the mix Bella. She is just a mess but very lovable! Second is how much our kids have gown in this year. Ashley is now driving and will be attending her junior prom very soon. This makes me feel very old! She is now trying to figure out what college she will soon be attending, and yes this also makes me very sad and feeling very old! DJ is growing up very fast and still keeps us laughing at all times. Nothing seems to surprise us anymore what he will come up with. We still have problems getting him to clean his room or to even help us out around the house but we still love him. He will reach the double digits in age in 1 week and I just can't believe how fast the time has gone with him as well. As far as David & I we are just as strong together as we have ever been. In fact I would say we are even stronger. The love we have for each never seems to fade no matter how rough it gets and for this I thank God everyday. As far as me I was recently diagnosed with Fibromaylgia and I am trying very hard to adjust to this. It is very painful and exhausting disease. You have intense pain and fatigue everyday with this diagnoses. What I find most discouraging with Fibromaylgia is when you see so many doctors for them to either say to you yes you have this problem but we don't treat it and or no we don't believe this is a disease one can have. So this last week I have started Aqua therapy for this and use my TENS unit alot but the pain is so bad that most weekends I spend on my couch being exhausted from working all week and in so much pain from working as well. But somehow I find the strength to get up every morning and face the changes that come towards me.

Ice Storm 2009

Well we have had the worst storm we have ever had in our state! We have several inches of ice and snow which has caused massive power outages throughout the state. We have been very lucky and we are in what I like to call a "bubble". There are several blocks around us that are without power and we have been very lucky to be one of the few still with power! To say the least we feel very blessed! I am so ready for spring, bring on the warm weather!

Way to go Ash!!!

We are so proud of Ash! She has won a Golden Key Award for one of her photo's that she has taken for her photo class. She will honored on Feb 12, 2009 and we can't wait to attend. Her photo will now be sent to the Scholastic National Competition and her work could be, if chosen, shown in Carnage Hall! Plus on top of that if she wins she could be up for some major college scholarships which with her dreams could open so many doors for her! The website to view this work is http://www.artandwriting.org/index.htm. The 2009 photo's are not up yet but soon we are hoping to view it on a national level! Ash we are so proud of you!!

Christmas

The kids are looking to forward to Christmas once again and David & I are just hoping it will be a good one for the kids! I on the other hand have "fallen off the wagon" so to say and I am smoking once again. Although I am not smoking near as much as I once did I still feel disappointed in myself. So I am trying to watch what I am smoking so that I once again quit but I never knew how hard this truly would be. Oh only to go back to when I was a teen and started smoking I would have never started. I only hope this will be a lesson for my children to never pick them up! Well I hope everyone has a blessed wonderful Christmas! Hopefully with Ashley new camera that I will be able to post some new pics soon.

The loss of Pinto

My brother, who's children are his dogs, lost one of his beloved son's yesterday. He has two dogs Jack and Pinto. Pinto was a little Jack Russell/Chihuahua mix who only weighed 6.5 pounds but was a very much loved dog. I have not in many years heard my brother cry like he has for this dog and although I know he did everything possible for his baby he still seems to blame his self. You see Pinto loved to play with his favorite toy, a string shaped into a bone. He would pull and tug at that toy until there was nothing left of it. Unfortunately one of the strings got stuck inside him and he was unable to pass it. They tried to do surgery to remove the blockage but to no avail. And the best thing for Pinto was to let him pass. For my brother this knowledge brought much guilt of allowing him to play with his beloved toy. Although we all know there was no way for him to know this would harm Pinto in such a way he still feels very guilty. So this post is dedicated to the memory of Pinto and the love that he gave and received. Pinto you will always be missed!

I Stoped Smoking!!

Check out my quit meter!!

Wooley Worms

I was outside today getting in my van when I ran into an all black woolly worm! I haven't seen one of those in years. So I asked my father what that meant and according to the folklore it means a very bad winter. I tried to find a picture of an all black woolly worm on-line but to no luck, so this one will have to do!

The one we seen was actually more black then this one!

New Theme

As anyone that knows me knows that I get bored with backgrounds very easy and need changes. I hope everyone likes the new theme! Please leave me a note to let me know how well you like the new theme!

Halloween

I lost our only camera on a recent trip to VA beach for work, so I have no photo to offer but I can tell you the kids had a blast! Ash decided that she would wear her prom dress from two years ago and add wings to it. As usual she was very beautiful young lady. DJ decide this year to be a ninja. He thought this way nobody would recognize him, well as you know his blue eyes stand out and everyone knew who he was. We also had my sister kids over this year so that they could join in the fun. Dad and I took DJ & Clark around to get candy and although we both were exhausted after the boys seem to have a blast. I will quote Clark he says "It was the best Halloween ever!". Oh to be that young again!! Kristina and Ash went out with several of Ash friends and seem to have a blast with each other. Krissy decided to dress as an 80's girl and to be honest this made me feel very old seeing how that is the years I spent being a young girl myself! But besides that she made a beautiful young 80's lady herself!

Ash's Photos

Okay I have been asked to post Ash photos here and being a VERY PROUD mom I wil1!

Tagged

I was "tagged" by Gin here :http://waitingforchina-girl.blogspot.com/ to take part in this little game. Apparently I have to list 7 random/weird facts about myself. Here are the rules:



1. Link to the person who tagged you and post the rules. Share 7 random or weird facts about yourself. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and link to them4. Let each person know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. I'm not sure if I have 7 people to tag, but anyway, here are 7 things you may or may not know about me.

1. I love Alpaca's!! If I could have an Alpaca farm I would

2. I love to travel. My only wish is that my hubby could travel more with me.

3. I love haunted houses and the paranormal. I could watch Ghost Hunters all the time

4. I love Gatlinburg TN. My dream is to have a cabin there someday

5. Christmas is my favorite Holiday, I have so much Christmas stuff that we can't put it all out!

6. Pogo.com is one of my favorite sites

7. I am a very religious person, I just haven't found a church "home" yet.

And now I am tagging Gin back, because I don't really have anyone else to!

Long time since last post

I have been awhile in posting but my life is never my own! I don't have much time now but plan on updating more later